Children of Beslan look at future in shade of the past
Hostages were taken at School No. 1 in Beslan, North Ossetia, on the morning of Sept. 1, 2004, during a ceremony held to inaugurate the new academic year. For two and a half days, the terrorists held more than 1,100 people—including children, their parents and school staff—in a building filled with explosives.
On the third day, there were explosions in the school, and a fire started that caused the building to partially collapse. After the first explosions, the hostages began to run out of the school and security forces stormed the building. During the chaotic shootout that ensued, in which civilians also participated with their own weapons, 27 terrorists were killed. The only terrorist caught alive was sentenced to life in prison.
Fariza's parents urged her to study in Moscow, but, six months before graduation, she decided to stay in Beslan. She will attend the medical academy in Vladikavkaz.
“I know a family that has a lot of children,” says Fariza. “Here they are, smart girls, but they think that they won’t have a future, because the parents simply have no money at all. Why do they keep giving so much just to us? It seems unfair somehow. Seriously.”
“We—our class and others—have seen a lot,” says Fariza’s classmate, Amina, smiling. “We took trips to Greece and to America! And we went to Germany and Italy. There were trips to Jordan and to England. And [Fariza] went to school in Moscow.
“Yes,” says Fariza. “We were invited. I went to that school for three years; it was nice, but the kids were mean. I went there in the fifth grade. Everyone urged me to go, but I didn't want to. But I didn't want to upset my mother. Three years later, I came home in the summer and stayed.”
“You know how it is here,” says Amina. “Guests arrive; they go first to the cemetery, to the City of Angels memorial where the Beslan children are buried. Then they go to the gym, where the terrorist attack took place. Our tourist attractions are a cemetery and gymnasium.”
“So now they are going to start giving out apartments to victims of the terrorist attack,” says Amina. “You wouldn't believe how the adults are behaving—especially the parents of dead children. They are arguing about which floor their apartment will be on! Their children are dead, nobody will return them. Why do this?”
“And when I was handing in documents to register at our local technical school, parents were there fighting for a place in line!” Fariza says, laughing uncomfortably. “Now they don't let parents inside. Last year, they had a fight inside. And, this year, it was outside.”
“There are some families where one child was killed and the other survived,” says Fariza, “and they are so fixated on the first that they forget about the second child.”
“Even I am ashamed,” Fariza says, her voice trembling. “I remember how it was, the terrorist attack, and it makes me... I think, if I had been older, I would have helped someone. When I got out, people around me were wounded. We could have helped them. But we just got out—that's all that was on our minds. At one point, my brother went and poured water into his shoe and I drank straight from it. My mom asked me for some, but I didn't give her a drink. I'm so ashamed of it! She says she doesn't remember now.”
Vika is leaving to study management in St. Petersburg. She believes all people are good, even those terrorists who held her prisoner.
“People are born good. It's just that some people didn't experience affection in their childhoods; they end up a little tough. Some people were shouted at in their childhoods. I think people do evil either because of their feelings of inadequacy, or to show their importance in some way,” says the graduate.
“The terrorists are not bad,” says Vika. “Back then, a woman told one of the terrorists that they are just children. And he answered that he has children too that died or something. And so he took revenge; he is also suffering, he lost his family.”
“As for the others... I also feel sorry for them, really. Do you know why? Because, I think it's a kind of hypnosis! They were led to believe that they should die in the name of Allah, or whatever they die for, and that they had to sacrifice people. Well, there were probably some bad people who led them... but they didn't do this in order to kill someone: They kill because they believe that, if they do this, they will be fine,” Vika says.
Her classmate Ira, in fashionable yellow shorts and with beautiful, red, manicured nails, is sitting on the couch in her apartment. A few years ago, she suffered from depression and had problems eating. Then she decided that it is better and more fun to be cheerful.
“I don't like to discuss the attack with strangers,” says Vika. “Some people come here to ask about the terrorist attack—many come for that, like journalists. They make reports about the fact that here we are, such heroes, living after the attack. And somehow we are able to find happiness in life. They always talk about the same thing. But anyone would be able to live. Life just goes on and we cannot change what already happened to us. Just the opposite: Now it is more pleasant to look at how we laugh, have fun and enjoy life.”
This is abridged version of the article first published in Russian in Russkiy Reporter magazine.